Saturday, June 19, 2010

Evaluating my life and my soul.....

The last few years of my life has had a bit too much chaos, drama, and heartache. During this time, I experienced significant loss. First, I lost my beautiful son James, then my best friend and husband Robert, next my foster daughter Sharla, and finally my sister Marion. It's hard enough to lose one person, but I have lost four. This definitely has not been my year....or two.


So, as a result of my situation, I made a lot of changes. Some changes were forced upon me, others I chose to make on my own. Some changes were for the better, some not so much. I am far from a perfect person, but then who is afterall? The biggest and most significant change that I see in myself is that I am CHOOSING to make my life what I want it to be. I am actively choosing to make profound and significant and positive changes in my life. No longer will I be a bystander or observer of my life. I will be an active participant in the outcome of my life. I choose to live by the following mantra's: "Peace, Love, & Happiness" and "Live Well, Laugh Often, and Love Much"


I feel that from my recent life experiences, I have become a more understanding, more compassionate, and more patient person. I don't lose my patience as easily. I just don't see any need for it. I don't understand those who do. I have also learned to "choose my battles" so to speak. In other words, I let alot of things slide by me that before I would have made issue of. I tend to think things out before reacting. Not always, mind you



I have always been an empathetic person, but now I actually know the depth of emotion that one feels from the loss of a loved one. I can actually relate with true knowledge and understanding. To have this perspective gives me the ability to draw upon my own experiences and offer insight to others that I would not otherwise have had.


As a naturally optimistic person, I tend to lean towards the glass is half full attitude. I know that despite all the great losses in my life, that there is still the very real possibility of a second chance at true love and true happiness. I have met someone very special that possesses the ability to make me smile and laugh again. He makes me feel like the world is our playground! He inspires me and always encourages me in my endeavors. We share a number of similar experiences that I feel have helped to draw us closer to each other. Only time will tell what will become of the two of us. Either way, I am blessed to have him in my life.



Over the last few months, one of the major issues I decided to focus on was that of becoming fit. And I don't mean just physically fit, but also spiritually and emotionally fit. It seems to me that it stands to reason that if one were to become fit within their soul that the the body would naturally follow.

So my quest begins with renewed optimism. I am using the "Optimist's Creed" as my basic guideline. It is from the SECRET by Christian D. Larson. (By the way if you haven't read it, take the time to do just that, believe me you will be thankful you did !)

The Secret....The Optimist's Creed

To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.

To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person I meet.

To make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.

To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.

To think only of the best, to work only for the best and to expect only the best.

To be just as enthusiastic about the succes of others as I am about my own.

To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.

To wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a smile to every living creature I meet.

To give so much time to improving myself that I have no time to criticize others.

To be too larger for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear,

and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud word, but in great deeds.

To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side, so long as I am true to the best that is in me.

As far as the physical aspect, my goals are as follows:

  • Work on my body on a daily basis by doing at least one of these activities: Walking, running, dancing, or yoga
  • Eat only those things which provide optimum nutrition and fuel for my body
  • Drink plenty of water on a daily basis
  • Steer clear of excess fats and sugars
  • Not making excuses
  • Make my life about living and doing so by maintaining a a healthy lifestyle

Well I am off to pursue my goals so I will be back later to keep you updated!